dream it, do it

~freewrite~
there's a thought in my mind right now that the fear that existed within me this past week is far gone and all i can think about is the future. things may be different or they may stay still in this curiosity that we share, but i'm hoping i'll be able to spend some time proving my instincts true and share several perfect moments with you...
*new user pics*

Current Mood: dreamin...
Current Music: fall to pieces: avril lavigne

as the tears fall
clearing up the eyes of an angel
disturbed by broken hearts
and the hesitation each time
pausing, as the day continues on
stuck on thoughts of wut it is to trust

with this beauty
as though to see a dream
blindfolded by the nightmare of words
meaning about as much
as the lessons that are left unlearned
and the light still left unseen

and in the optimism of neglect
there are promises that are left unkept
and some common terms have yet to be spoken
but the tears will reflect each lie
and you will understand the reason why
her life is spent hiding behind oblivion

Current Mood: envious
Current Music: seven years: norah jones

Arrows In All Directions
by: me

"It's over!" she said as she threw her 250 dollar mask to the floor. there was no longer the minimized image that once projected in her mind. her distrot heart was not full of love but rather deceit...lies of love and of life. but the price to pay for living is exactly how much I have in change. must i continue these conversations with the only friend i have as though it's not just a broken mind speaking to an empty open room who's capacity sign reads none. significant to idea that i don't exist at all. so the clock is striking 6:08 and i know that i am going to be late for the time i need to discuss with myself the endless given day. and as i make a left to a familiar place the artificial ligh reflects a darkened face similar to the one i see when i look into the mirror and in all the traffic that i face as i make my way through the piercing haze leads me to my place of destination. comfort with an empty sould that can only catch the tears so cold as they fall from the cause of this circus that has taken over life.

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Unopened Letter to the World

Sorry Left Unsaid

(chorus)
Are you ready…
To open a new book
Telling my death’s story
The spots of your reflection
And ur holographic eyes
That I can see straight through
It hurts no matter wut I do
Cuz ur shadow’s least expected
I’ll tell u when I think you should know
The ghost within ur mirror

(verse 1)
I don’t forgive you for forgiving me
Apology unaccepted
So go ahead and bask in all the glory
Of the fake times that we shared
Which seemed to last beyond the sky
Y don’t u just unscrew the world
The way u did to me
And watch as ur everything
Falls to dust
And ur nothing never return

(chorus)

(verse 2)
Will you remember?
You better not forget
So etch it in ur diary
Share with all ur contradictions
It’s time for show and tell
But u have no form of proof
Except the sleepless nites u spent
Dreaming up these deceptions
As I lay awake to find
The heartfelt, petty truth

(chorus)

(verse 3)
Now my presence haunting you
Rarely do u breathe
From all the careless faults
Brought by ur deceit
In effect of ur manipulation
U stumble from the aftershocks
As each lie is thrown
Into ur face
From fifty miles back
Where it all began

(chorus)

the ghost within your mirror…x3

Current Mood: emo
Current Music: Kiss Me Hard

Reassurance (continued)

falling into your arms
and time loses all meaning
it's been taken over by a state of mind
that surpasses a second's being
the reality of these feelings
takes the defenition of fear
to a whole new interpretation
of which defines the connection
of when our eyes meet

i luv to see ur face
and think of nothing else
i luv the way those silences
expressed the way we felt
i luv the way i find ur flaws
acceptable to me
for my worries all have washed away
and are burdened to the sea

i wish this to last a lifetime
together we wrote in the sand
as we watched the current wash it away
all i could feel was ur hand
no longer does a fairytale occur between us
for reality has taken over
leaving our dreams to be undetermined
allowing fate to choose life's course
in which only our hearts will matter

I see ur face and I think of nothing else
those silences expressed the way we felt
i find ur flaws acceptable to me
for my worries all have washed away
and are burdened to the sea

Current Mood: pensive
Current Music: heal me, i'm heartsick: no vacancy

Reassurance
song(unfinished)

Seeing your smile
and my memory slips away
no recollection of the fight
that we had just yesterday
walking, fingers locked
waves gently flowing by
washing over our feet
washing away the past
that could've caused an ending

Chorus
no longer would i see ur face
and think of nothing else
no longer would those silences
express the way we felt
no longer would i find your flaws
acceptable to me
for my worries all have washed away
and are burdened to the sea

Current Mood: wonderful day at the beach
Current Music: I Remember You: The Ataris

this is just a journal of things i've written and thoughts that are goin through my head...only certain people know about this and hopefully it'll stay that way cuz i only want a few people to know...make sure you add this new lj but keep my old one as well
-Tony